blablabla

2009-08-15T21:21:00.001+08:00

fcuk, another heart

2009-08-14T22:56:00.000+08:00

lulu, in case you're wondering where to gotake me out tomorrow and bring me to somewhere.anywhere that has fun. that is all that matter.

sayang nye pasal

2009-08-14T22:17:00.000+08:00

i just realise i look fat in photos and never look good when the camera is below. ohwell. but i still love myself. no worries. ahhaha. i was very very bored that's why i took photos of myself. but i don't do this often cause i don't think i'm vain. too bored i guess. short and quick but still best thanks to kak ain. it's okay, i don't mind travelling at the other end just for you. i guess next week i won't be free at all cause staying over at woodlands. but still not sure bout that. so we'll see. if my sister is confirm about the gubahan thing then gotta go. i know it's a las min thing to do to repay back puase just before puase. but i like it that way. ahaha. lappy has giving me issues but thank god it's fine. dad said i have too many photos that caused the lappy to lag. hahaha. true enough. feeling versace now. the smell. wohooooo. i think imma go back to just britney and burberry once all finished. that's my favourite. hehh. it's been long since i last sing thanks to my throat infection! aiyayaaya. mcm mcm only. okay people, if let's say you wanna have plans tell me in advance, cause need to check my calender. back to food! nights there (:

YOURE THE BEST UH BLOGGER

2009-08-14T21:50:00.000+08:00

erghhhhhhhh. very very frustrating with this cause this blogger is still crazy even with any application. gosh. how irritating is that? anyway very very hot just now. i didn't know orang tua loves to talk. gossip jer tau. abeh pasal aku plak tu. aiyoyooooo. mane tak hot. takpe, da cool thanks to honeydew sago. heeeee. just heck care about just now. buka was fun cause i had all food to myself. instead of studying, i'm teaching sister about math. hey, i really believe in you okay. i know how you feel. trust me, all you gotta do is practise. been there, done there. i might know how you feel about math but i struggled with my a math too. i'm a F9 a math student. really, even till prelims i screw it up. but i didn't give up, thanks to my love. cheychey. ahhaha. it's mr ng actually. he helped me A LOT! he's the only teacher that i can't forget,like,hate,miss blablabla. so i did amath paper everyday. and corrections done next day. really sat for 2 and a half hours doing it, no talking. yeah. but thankfully hardwork pays yknow. i got b3 for a math (: i'm not showing off cause i know some got better. but what i'm tryna say here is it's never too late and seriously your grade will improve only with hardwork. so yeahh, gotta go back teaching her. dadaaa (:

for once i thought blogger was fine

2009-08-12T18:18:00.000+08:00

hahahah. yeah. i really thought it was when i try just now. ohwell. blogger, don't make me change to another, i warn you. hahaha. anyway it's really true of what people say. you only bother to wear nice clothes only at the start. true enough, it's proven, maybe for me. hahaha. guys will now say, i always go to school now with berms and shirt. guess i have to say that too. hahaha. i couldn't be bothered to dress so nice to go to school anymore. once in a while maybe yes but now i am very very lazy. lazy to the extend i dress up like a guy almost everyday. couldn't be bothered. don't mention make up cause it's not ma thang. hhahahah. anyway started on math already. i think i have to worry more on ckt and dfund. ohwell. time to wake up people. waiting for buka time, so thought of blogging for awhile. okay, gotta go since busukhati boy wanna use already. bye (:

wednesdaymorning

2009-08-12T09:35:00.002+08:00

selamatpagi!hah. now it's time to mug! like seriously. feeling better! yay. but i passed my virus to lots of people. heeeeeeeee. sorry yaw. okay okay. cannot use long. DAAAARS (:

MUST WATCH!

2009-08-10T20:54:00.001+08:00

this video was impromtu. i edited it of course. watch it.enjoy (:

changes

2009-08-10T18:52:00.001+08:00

i still remembered the time when i had short hair. it was weeks before my birthday. so fast, and my hair has grown like the second picture. without you realizing, my hair will be as long as you can see in my prom photo. besides that, so fast how 2009 has come close to the end. and i must say 2009 has taught me lots of thangs. yknowiknow. fasting month gonna come soon. usually people only change for the sake of this month and after that back to square one. i definitely wanna change for the better but not just for this month. 2009 hasn't been an easy one for me. incidents that happened this year was different from other years. more to what matter to me most. choices i make in life. honestly, i still don't know what i want. teacher,stewardess,singer? seee. i'm unclear myself. not to mention about my love life. what's inside my heart? who is it? is the guy i love is the one? or maybe i am still not over him? or am i falling for someone? maybe am i feeling nothing right now? idontknow. but all i know is i want to live life to the fullest cause i don't wanna die with regrets. ps, this blogger has been such an ass. hahaha. everyone has changed to onsugar. maybe cause they can't stand it alr. hahaa. i can't too but let's just wait a while more (:

doodlesssss

2009-08-09T21:37:00.001+08:00

girl, you're ugly
and you ain't somebody.
what makes you think he even remembers you?
you were never his boo.
it's obvious that it's love,
but is it one sided?
only he knows.

amaciam?hahahha. it's pretty obvious that i'm bored and since i can't study with feeling sick so i just doodled. haha.

Today, while entering the building I live in, I walked into my neighbor who winked at me and said last night must have been great. After I asked why, he said he could hear my girlfriend moaning and screaming, and that I must be pretty good at it. I was just coming back from a week overseas. FML

got it from fml.haahahhahah

home alone

2009-08-09T15:57:00.002+08:00

i was sleeping soundly when this boy of mine woke me up by singing MAJULAH SINGAPURA. whattahell. cute yes but not when he kept disturbing my sleep with his singing. since today is national day, he wore red and white. haiyooo. macam macam uh.7 years old, so clever already. firstly happy national day to all! secondly congrats girls for winning friendly againts sim! knew it that you guys gonna win. exams around the corner baby. mug? hmmmm. hhaha. i was browsing through my cupboard just now when i saw this book. chemistry o level assessment book. memories siol! i flipped through the pages and i started to reminisce about the past.boohoooo. but one comment i gotta make, the handwriting was UGLY! heeeeee. skipped that. happy sunday people (:

My condolences to them

2009-08-09T13:02:00.000+08:00

Channel NewsAsia - Sunday, August 9
SINGAPORE: A young couple died after they were knocked down by a train at the KTM railway track near Upper Bukit Timah Road early Saturday morning.

19—year—old Goh Sheng Yao and 20—year—old Lee Jing Yu, both Republic Polytechnic students, were pronounced dead by paramedics at the scene at about 6.00am.
It is believed that the train driver had signalled to both of them to move away from the track, but they failed to do so.The train was heading towards Malaysia and was not carrying any passengers at the time of the accident. Train services were disrupted for nearly two hours before resuming at around 7.40am.Police have classified the case as unnatural death and investigations are underway. Witnesses with information on the case can contact the police at 1800—255—0000.

May your souls rest in peace. Just a reminder to the rest, please takecare of yourselves.

what if it is this?

2009-08-09T12:49:00.000+08:00

that's all i can say

2009-08-08T19:10:00.001+08:00

memories.

minah ker?

2009-08-08T11:53:00.000+08:00

it was on some floorball training when this happened. if i'm not mistaken it was after training. so i was talking i blurted out the ah ah siak and also ah ah siol. then everyone started to tease me esp ogawa and kayla. since then on they love teasing me about that. haha. nemind, i don't mind. hahahaha. good luck girls for the friendly match later. very very sad that i couldn't come. i can't ngaji too cause sick. whattahell! i badly wanna ngaji cause my aim is to qatam once at the end of this year. it's okay it's okay. i don't know whats wrong with the blogger that i can't post photos. ohwell. at least i get to watch hindi movies later! wheeeeeeeee. sayonara (:

Nobody but you

2009-08-07T21:36:00.000+08:00

he has very very very good vocals. oh my. nights (:

sicko!

2009-08-07T20:17:00.000+08:00

8 days mc ):

have you done yours?

2009-08-06T20:11:00.002+08:00

let's try this. try to sit down by yourself in a quiet environment. then try to ask yourself questions. ask questions that has never been asked. like for example, deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep inside your heart who is the one you really fall for? honestly, have you forgotten him? are you in denial that you have moved on? or maybe why are you giving your all to someone when you're so young? why sacrifise your own happiness just for someone else? like if you party,smoke and drink, why do you stop doing all those for that special someone? is it worth it? why do you put your boyfriend on top of anyone else? why are you being like a dog to your boyfriend? why do you tell him everything? why is he everything to you at the first place? or maybe why are you hiding your true self? or who are you, really? what do you want in life? hmmmmmmmmmmmmm. heh (:

i was late for eng drawing class as usual but teacher always close one eye, as usual. heeeeee. glad that i did fine for the test. most actually did fine. good good. i came to school feeling half dead. obviously i got it from zara. on the way to school, my head was gonna blast. if only i have much money, i would take a cab cause i have this fear of fainting. some should know why. but i told myself, to be strong. i can't stay at home cause i don't want dad to know i'm sick. dad is counting on me to take care of zara so if he knew i'm sick it's gonna be another burden. sooooooo, once i reach school, i did nothing much. waited for class to end so that i could buy panadols extra. hahha. really had no appetite. gosh. i hate this feeling. worst part is ckt lab. cause i had a test, it was miserable. my mind was blank cause the fever was killing me. i had no choice but to carry on. then i told myself that i can't go for training cause of my toe and also fever. home now, gonna sleep soon cause i really cannot take it. thought to give tomorrow's pt and saturday's game a pass but i'm afraid that cause of that i can't make it to the team. it's okay, i'm not going to use my injured toe and fever as an excuse. seriously this flu, dry cough and fever is killing me zeee! someone or anyone cook for me porridge cause i'm very hungry and that's the only thing i can swallow ): on the brighter side, all mini tests are over so i'm very relieved (: heeeeeee, nights. time check - 8.39pm.

BEYONCE!!

2009-08-06T01:22:00.002+08:00

besides agnes monica, beyonce is another person who i got inspiration from. and guess what? i was listening to radio early wednesday morning when muttons announced that beyonce is coming to singapore! but it's a $180 ticket. the bonus thing is you get to see black eyed peas too. gosh, i've always told myself that if she ever come here i'm not going to miss her show. her concert is on september i think. aiyooyoooooooooooo. i wish i wish money drop from the sky. hahaha.

yadaaaaaaayadaaaaaaa

2009-08-05T23:11:00.002+08:00

first, we were required to run 2 rounds, suddenly out of the blue coach came and said 5 rounds with a wide smile on her face. hahaha. halfway through training, i injure my toe. can walk, i mean i have to force myself to walk. though i feel the pain, i think it's fine. just have to ice it. heh. and sorry people if i don't reply to your texts or return your calls cause after training i'll be very shagged so i'll only check it the day after alright? should i go for a run tomorrow? hmmm, i have no choice. and saturday have friendly and it gonna be a loooooooooooooong training so wish me luck. hahaha. and today i came to school seeing everybody studying. then i realised today we had a test. yeah, i didn't know. haha. and i gotta say this since i have no other choice. for the past two or three days i've been receiving calls from this private number and the irritating part is whenever i say hello a few times, the person hung up. so to whoever who has been doing that please either stop it or say whatever you wanna say and not to forget tell me who are you, don't worry i won't kill you. till here cause i'm having a test tmrw. nights!!!

dey dey

2009-08-05T22:33:00.003+08:00

thank god sis got better. and so i decided to accompany fiqah just for a while. thanks guys for the day!

when everybody else are sleeping

2009-08-04T00:45:00.002+08:00

yeah, quick one. i gotta keep myself awake cause i need to keep on eye on my sister. she's not feeling well, and it's serious cause doctor say, uh it's okay. skip that. pretty disappointed cause none actually helped her. ohwell, and i musn't forget that i'm like a mother to these two. don't worry, i'll try my best. i still remembered that day, when i was primary two, someone told me, "you gotta take care of them now, remember you are going to be responsible for everthing " since then on, i've learnt. not pms but feeling pretty down. i've been wondering, how long more i have to keep holding on? but that's life. i can't simply break apart cause i still got my siblings to think about, so gotta stay strong. can do it! heh. and yes lyn, i love you, i really do. no words can explain how i feel. i've never felt so empty before when someone left me, and maybe cause you have left me. i don't care anymore what has happen but all i ask is can we work this out? 17 years together, please. i'm not feeling well either but i had no choice cause zara is more important. all i can do is hope for a better tomorrow for the family.ohwell.on the brighter side, meeting all my lovelies. heh. especially both my elder sisters.at last!!! i don't know when but still feeling happy. goodnight people, i'm going to continue on my sister (:

loving you

2009-08-03T00:16:00.000+08:00

didn't listen to this song for a very long time. yesterday after singing this song with lyn, it got stuck to head. seriously. and for the fact that i was singing with her, it felt very very deep. ohwell. can't deny, miss her so much. listen to it, then you feel it. it's time to sleep! so weird to sleep late today! maybe cause i've been sleeping early all this while. heh.

monday new

2009-08-03T00:03:00.000+08:00

before i go to sleep, i just wanna post something short. heh. today is a new monday, hope it isn't a blue one. had a good day on sunday, just chill at home. heeeee. guess what? my love was sent for repair. reason because it wasn't placed in an appropriate bag therefore the mechanism inside was destroyed. sad sad sad. so warning to those who has a dslr, please use the camera bag to prevent from all this things happening. you wouldn't wanna waste your money just because of your laziness of not using the required bag right? heh. chaoi!

i know you know i know what

2009-08-02T16:42:00.000+08:00

the rose at the first picture was what i got from mak pengantin. i'm not a big fan of roses but i swear it's so nice. so far, it has lasted for a day. fyi, i'm never good at plants. roses petals were everywhere yesterday. you know what i want for my wedding? replace all the roses petals to ferrero rocher. since the bathtub, bed, tables and etc filled with rosses petals, why not choc? heh. try to imagine. woooooooo, heaven! heh. second photo was taken while waiting for ayu to finish off her make up. i was too bored, that's why. haha. third one was with atan! hahh. out of the blue she wanted to snap a photo of us. i was busy doing i don't remember what. haha. home today, is all i want. ahhaha. sayonara.

KAK SITI'S WEDDING!

2009-08-02T12:51:00.001+08:00

firstly wanna say sorry to those who tried to reach me. i actually left my handphone at the hotel room and when i reached home, i was too tired to check it. sorry! anyway the wedding was a blast. being a part time photographer was tiring. i swear. and worse still, with the clothing and heels i'm wearing, it's very very troublesome. actually the whole night i was busy snapping more than anything else. & thanks to hafiz glamour, i have the confidence to carry on with singing. heh. and to kak siti and darren, wanna congrats you for the wedding and may allah bless your marriage. remember, though you are married, you can still have fun with us cousins! heeeeee. okay, till here. enjoy the pictures folks. and i post only few cause it's crazy if i were to post hundreds of them. hee

saturday night fever

2009-08-01T14:14:00.004+08:00

yesterday's function was dope! HAHHHAHA. today i didn't go for training as i had ngaji and gotta go for wedding dinner. so yeah. waiting for my slut to come over before i come over to her crib. can't wait for the dinner because of the FOOD! heh. gonna be a malay traditional girl tonight. all black for the two of us. hee. imma happy girl today. goooooooooood dreaaaaaaaam! hahaha. miss little sunshine & chatterbox are with me now. goodbye suckers! (:

i smell hypocrisy in the house

2009-08-01T00:02:00.002+08:00

shockingly i received 2 calls from 2 unexpected people. heh (:

tomorrow gonna be one hell of a hectic day. enjoy your saturday folks!

just some snapz

2009-07-31T17:24:00.001+08:00

TGIF!

2009-07-31T16:57:00.004+08:00

now i can relax my face. not like on my picture anymore. looking forward to everything now. don't wanna bother the crappy stuff cause it only spoils your mood. heeee. i received a text from fad that can't make me & faris stop laughing. "please kirim salam your year 2 boyfriend. hahaha" macam macam eh. ohwell. gonna stop here. enjoy your friday !

i didn't stop because of you

2009-07-31T16:41:00.004+08:00

the first thing when i reached the finishing line, i said,"i didn't stop because of you" and smiled. it's the truth. thankyou hui shan. the funny thing is she said the same thing too. i told her that if i knew that i would have stopped long time ago. but all our efforts will be wasted. we did it! and we made a new time record for both of us (:

what's going on?

2009-07-30T00:24:00.002+08:00

i ain't stupid. i know. okay best. stories all going all around. let me make this clear. i'm not with any dude you think. best eh make stories. how kental can you guys be? you know who you are. ohwell. i didn't know guys gossip more than girls do. get a life freaks! get your facts right (:

sabar je nak (:

2009-07-29T23:45:00.000+08:00

satu satu perangai tak boleh angs!

fcuk it

2009-07-29T23:19:00.000+08:00

if only i have the power to eliminate the unnecessary guys. ohwell. anyway have something to say. girls, just try. go out with a naked face. i'm sure not many can do. honestly even i can't. my face feel naked when i don't use eyeliner. and thank god i only use eyeliner. training definitely gotta put it off. thanks to that, now i'm kinda fine with it. but i personally feel that only when a girl or a woman has nothing on and still look attractive is what you call beautiful. cause i feel make up can do wonders. no offence. just my opinion. bye.

how cool when all these refer to 2 peepos

2009-07-29T22:48:00.000+08:00

i knew this was coming. i thought i could just let it off. but honestly i can't. maybe because you were close to me. let me get this clear with you. things stop not cause of anyone. you don't know that right? i know you would say alah, confirm lie one lah. but do you know that the problem actually lies with you? you can say all you want about me. but I'm very clear about what's happening. fyi even before everything was fine, i decided not to let this continue. cause firstly you're clingy! yeah. harsh i know. sorry but it's the truth. i felt suffocated you know. and worse still you said the words that i would never wanna hear. i bet you gonna ask yourself when and what. that's for you to find out yourself. and one thing for sure i have never had the intention of using you. simple, whatever. wanna know why? cause even if i try to solve, it will be never ending. siape yang makan cili, dia yang terasa pedas.

food is love (:

2009-07-27T23:18:00.000+08:00

i don't know whether to worry or just forget about it. i had sandwich then mee rebus. after that had nachos, cheesefries, bandito pocket and one original chicken. i don't think i mind much about that. but what bothers me is why must i eat directly before sleep? and i can't sleep unless i eat rice or koka tomyam every single day? actually i eat koka tomyam almost everyday before sleep. bad, i know. my only fear is if i might get some illness because of it. on the lighter note, i don't care if it gonna make me fat cause the reason is stated at the title. gonna eat tomyam maggie then to sleep. NIGHTS !

when your eyes trick you

2009-07-27T22:21:00.002+08:00

some of you might have seen all these photos before. but i look like to share with those who don't know. i'm sure you know all these are just in a form of art right? please don't say you thought it was real. there's more though but too many to upload each and every photo. really curious how they can make it look so real when it's actually fake. this shows how good their art can be. i'm not a big fan of painting but i definitely respect them and to those who can paint really well. i know this is out of topic but i just feel like i want to voice out my opinion. photography is a form of art and not a trend. seriously, what makes you think having dslr makes you cool? wait. lemme say it again. what i'm tryna say is what's your point of showing off your dslr? there's more to just having it. what's the point of having it when you don't even know how to use it? what's the point of having it when you're gonna use for a while and when the trend is gone, you gonna put it aside? what's the point of wasting thousands dollars for that camera but passion isn't there? no intention offending anyone. just voicing out. like it, hate it, whatever. just enjoy it :D

feel it

2009-07-27T20:43:00.001+08:00

There's a whole lot more to life than parties and getting wasted and hangovers and destroying your vital organs.

There's a whole lot more to life than being the hottest girl or guy or just trying too hard to be attractive.

There's a whole lot more to life than worrying about what your friends think of you, or who's with who, or who did what to who and who's going to get beat up for it.

There's a whole lot more to life than bitching about any person just wanting to be on the top, leaking out secrets for no reason or even destroy someone's reputation.

There's a whole lot more to life if you don't care about the unnecessary things and actually care about yourself and people you love.

Remember it's your life so

do it for you, not for nobody else.

baby time

2009-07-26T16:04:00.007+08:00

it's just me and hasan today!& p.s , i'm loving the 2 songs on my blog (:

sweetsmelling

2009-07-26T15:44:00.002+08:00

seventeen cents

love at first glow ~

ohwells

2009-07-26T13:43:00.002+08:00

hey hey. so the selection took place. alhamdulillah i got in. but my stamina is putting me at a real danger. there's gonna be another selection for just the school team. so thanks to you stamina, i'm at the bottom few. i really don't know to be scared or happy. should i give up? or should i put all my heart in? i really don't know. i badly want to be in the school team. ohwell, decided. gonna put all my heart in it and sees how it goes. anyway sunday gonna be a chill day. heeeee.

honeydew sago (:

remembering sunday

2009-07-26T12:30:00.003+08:00

talks talks talks.

sincere thoughts

2009-07-23T19:20:00.002+08:00

i can foresee us growing up together. alhamdulillah (:

funny, very funny

2009-07-21T19:04:00.003+08:00

it's funny how people can be such a hypocrite to me.

it's funny how people can pretend they know me.

it's funny how many times i get the same question from different people everyday.

it's funny how people can ask how are we and when i said we're fine, they questioned me again.

it's funny how people have been waiting for me to say we're not fine.

it's funny how people have been wanting to break us apart.

it's funny how people don't have faith in it which they shouldn't actually bother.

but it's very funny how i can tolerate all this.

it's very funny how come i don't find it annoying.

it's very funny how i can play along with their game.

the best part is it's funny how i thought it made my life more interesting.

thankyou. hahaha

a part of me

2009-07-21T18:58:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK SYIKA!

sorry i can't meet you cause pretty occupied with things.

promise to meet you soon alright?

miss you so much cause we haven't met for months.

ohwell, once again happy birthday (:

macam macam

2009-07-21T18:53:00.002+08:00

literally sick and sick of everything else.

& girl, maybe we're second to you.

ohwell. what to do. takpe.

gonna do project now.

stupid headache and fever -_-

and and jantan takde bola gitu uh! hahahahha

whattafuk

2009-07-19T22:14:00.003+08:00

fahmee: kak nisha nak vodka atau gin?
nisa: huh? ape siak?
hasan: ape campur ngn ape sedap? vodka ngn orange juice ker gin ngn tonic?
nisa: siol uh. ape bende korang due bobal ni?

i went to them closer, then i realise it's a bartender game. gosh. games educate them wrongly. and for god sake they're only sec 2 and even worse pri 1!!! even i don't know some which they mentioned like vermouth and triple sec. enough enough ! it's already 10.19 pm and it's time to sleep :D

freedom is a key to happiness

2009-07-19T20:05:00.002+08:00

when i grow up, i will want to have a house at es paris.

i want to teach at my old primary school.

i still want to shop with my girlfriends.

i want to go all around the world with my soulmate.

i want to have a "girls night out" and etc with lovelies.
i want to earn that much that i can have a great kitchen.

most importantly i want my lovelies to stay with me till my last breath.

okay, enough talking. time to work on it baby (:

oh lovely

2009-07-19T16:23:00.005+08:00

A magic moment I remember:

I raised my eyes and you were there.

A fleeting vision, the quintessence

Of all that's beautiful and rare.

Then came a moment of renaissance.

org kahwin

2009-07-19T15:00:00.002+08:00

the wedding was very traditional. don't have to mention about the food cause my uncle was the one who cook. yum yum. heeee. no dj, more like performance. all "ahmad albab" people started singing those malay traditional song. ayah mentioned to me that he don't wanna do my wedding in this way. he said, "kau buat kat community centre sudah, ade air con. best. ngan kau jangan lupe, family kite besar. arwah mama nye side, mama nye side, ayah nye side, lagi lagi atok ade 2 wives. " i just nodded my head. hahaha. time to do project ! daarrrrrs.

for you kak syika

2009-07-19T11:29:00.002+08:00

i'm very very happy that you have found your love. the day when i saw him, i knew both of you will be together one day. though we haven't meet for months, i definitely think of you in every few days. not to forget kak ain and abg im. we have come to you guys for years. that's cause we wanna show we still love you though we're not under one roof anymore. but i think it's time for you to show us where we stand in you. besides all that, we will always love you and definitely thank you for the 8 years.

wishessss

2009-07-19T10:41:00.004+08:00

HAPPY SWEET SEVENTEEN TO YOU IKAH! Hope you will enjoy on your special day. and sorry to wish you a lil late. heh. not to forget HAPPY TWO MONTHS TO YOU AND ALI! so far so good eh korang.haha. stay sweet as always. and i might not know what's really happening about your dad, but all i can do is pray for your dad. insyallah. it might be personal to you thats why i dare not ask. just be strong alright darling? takecare. xoxo (:

classmate of mine. very irritating but very fun i tell you. "teacher i''m nice, so be nice" he can repeat that for idk how many times. hahaha.

we're given till next saturday to prove ourselves. gosh. how can i not be nervous? and it's pretty stupid of me to blur at that time. i felt very angry at myself for making silly mistakes. for example, i did blind passes ! and i miss a shot and a pass was given directly to me and i was in front of the goal post ! aiyooo. yeah, we lose. expected. but stella said that we played fine just that gotta practise on our defence and stronger shots. i shall take note of that. on the brighter side of everything, the dinner with the girls was funfunfun. hahah. tri made us laughed like nobody business. had tomyam ! sab, it reminded of you eh, i don't know why. heeeee. hope there's more of this. cause i know i will have fun. my fridays and saturdays have changed, but fun will never change. heh, thanks girls. tania bite me for no reason, crazy ! haha. as usual, sunday gonna be a family day (:

a quickie post

2009-07-17T00:40:00.004+08:00

" party like a rockstar

look like a moviestar

play like an allstar

fuck like a pornstar

baby, imma superstar "

LOVING THIS SONG !

hello there. done with school! at last. heeee. gonna run at bedok reservoir as usual. if i have an option i won't go. but what to do. done with school so while accompanying my dear aizah, i shall do a quick one. since many people have done geek party, why not funk party? gonna be more interesting. seriously. she's beside me now and she kept saying im irritating but i know she loves me. kan kan? hahaha. see, she's laughing already. okaylahhh. gotta go ptp now! sayonara ~

TRY IT (:

2009-07-16T20:25:00.003+08:00

I'M A FREAKY CUTIE WITH A HOT BOYRFRIEND WHO KILLED YOUR DEALER CAUSE I'M SEXY AS HELL

First, add “I’m a/am” on your title, then add the rest of the answers on as you do the questions.

What color/kind of socks are you wearing?
[ ] Red = loud
[ ] Green = stupid
[X] None = freaky
[ ] Fuzzy = gorgeous
[ ] Yellow = innocent
[ ] Purple = a little too happy
[ ] Black = emo
[ ] Stripes = funny
[ ] Gray = skanky
[ ] Pink = preppy
[ ] Light blue = sweaty
[ ] Other = hot
[ ] White = sexy

What kind of pants are you wearing?
[X] Shorts = cutie
[ ] Skirt/skort = skank
[ ] Corduroy = faggot homosexual
[ ] Tight jeans = scene kid
[ ] Ripped jeans = emo
[ ] Cammo = cage fighter
[ ] Jeans = prep
[ ] Pajamas = pimp
[ ] Cargo = clown
[ ] Sweats = athlete
[ ] Boxers = brat
[ ] Booty shorts = female
[ ] Capris = Gangster
[ ] Nothing = hoe
[ ] Dickies = weirdo
[ ] Bikini bottoms = tiki girl
[ ] Other = sex addict

What is your natural hair color?
[ ] Auburn = that every one wants to make out with
[ ] Blonde = with a broken heart
[ ] Black = with a sexy smile
[X] Dark brown = with a hot boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] Red = that likes to have fun
[ ] Brown = who loves to be different
[ ] Dirty blonde= with a nice ass
[ ] Bald = with herpes

Pick the month you were born on:
[ ] 1 = who ate
[ ] 2 = who needed
[X] 3 = who killed
[ ] 4 = who shot
[ ] 5 = who killed
[ ] 6 = who smoked with
[ ] 7 = who banged
[ ] 8 = who ran shirtless with
[ ] 9 = who got stabbed horribly by
[] 10 = who cuddled with
[ ] 11 = who slept with
[ ] 12 = who ran naked with

Pick the day you were born on:
[ ] 01 = the kool-aid man
[ ] 02 = a dog
[ ] 03 = a shoe
[ ] 04 = a toothbrush
[ ] 05 = Santa Claus
[ ] 06 = The Trojan man
[ ] 07 = Barney the dinosaur
[ ] 08 = a prostitute
[ ] 09 = a porn star
[ ] 10 = a bag of weed
[ ] 11 = my lover
[ ] 12 = a glass of milk
[ ] 13 = a horse
[ ] 14 = a lesbian
[ ] 15 = a stripper
[ ] 16 = a pickle
[ ] 17 = a jew
[ ] 18 = a homo
[ ] 19 = an orange
[ ] 20 = my mom
[ ] 21 = a homeless guy
[ ] 22 = a whore
[ ] 23 = my crush
[ ] 24 = an easter egg
[ ] 25 = a jar of honey
[ ] 26 = a condom
[ ] 27 = a bowl of cereal
[ ] 28 = a french fry
[X] 29 = your dealer
[ ] 30 = Paris Hilton
[ ] 31 = your grandma

Pick the color of the shirt you are wearing
[ ] White = because I love marijuana
[X] Black = because I’m sexy as hell
[ ] Pink = Because the lil people told me to
[ ] Blue = because I have AMAZING boobs
[ ] Red = because I’m a pimp and your jealous
[ ] Polka Dots = because I hate my life
[ ] Purple = because I’m gay
[ ] Gray = because I got dared
[ ] Other = because that’s how I roll
[ ] Green = because I’m good in bed
[ ] Orange = because I smoke crack
[ ] Turquoise = because I have a noodle in my nose
[ ] Brown = because I had to
[ ] Shirtless = because I’ve got abs

not strong enough i guess

2009-07-16T20:01:00.000+08:00

tried for a day but i think it snapped.

just so you know.

now then i realise

2009-07-16T19:29:00.002+08:00

stupid to realise it now. ohwell. anyway pretty nervous about the selection that gonna happen soon. though i've got into the first selection that doesn't mean i can take it for granted. now that they're gonna do selection again for school team i must say i don't have much confidence. firstly, they have many good players already. secondly, i'm only year one. and lastly i may not be up to standard. and since i don't have the stamina, i lose out even more. but let's just pray that i got in. heeeeee. thank god i did fine for the tests. but worried about the main exam. and my class is funny lah. let's just see what happens tomorrow. i wanna go ndp show ! but sad cause no more tickets. kak siti's stories really touched me. oh, how sweet can that guy be. i wish i wish. hahaha. and seriously think whatever you want, talk whatever you like about me cause i don't give a damn about it. as long as my concious are clear, i have nothing to worry about. type no more. bye.

by her

2009-07-13T19:08:00.003+08:00

While you’re out chasin’ all your dreams, tell me where does that leave me
What about the plans that you left behind, the little white house by the shore line
What about the promise that you made to stay with me till your dying day
Said you’d never go away, are they just things that people say
I wonder where you are tonight and do I ever cross your mind
She wonders what went wrong
Could I have loved a little deeper
Or did I hold on too strong - kayla

idk why but i keep reading it over and over again. totally loving it cause it's so simple and sincere. you're a genius girl ! i wish i could write like that, but wait long long okay? hahaha. sorry if i took it without asking you first. but don't worry, i've put your name. time to eat dinner people! & back to old number, 9.................... (:

secondary school days

2009-07-13T17:49:00.004+08:00

whenever i look at this photo, it reminded me about lots of things. soi'm going to recall everything that happened in sec sch days.this gonna be a very very long one. please if you have questions about anything regarding my post, don't ask cause i won't bother to answer.

so basically when i was sec one, ms siew hated me. yes, always catch me about short skirt and etc. i admitted i folded my skirt. but that was when i was sec 1 okay. so it didn't go well cause i had lots and lots of fights with many many girls. oh well, part and parcel right. had my first heartbreak. yeah. it's kinda obvious for those who has been following my blog when i was sec one. but too bad, it's closed. heeee. then then stupid things happenned. hahaha. what a class. rmbr fiqah and izzati about p-s? hahahah. sec 3, i have many many complications. that tak jadi then that idk what happenned. then sec 4, things was very sweet. i swear it brought me back feeling like i'm in love. ohwell. but everything was ALMOST. then blablabla, didn't also. idk why still cannot. fucked up right? hahaha.now gooooood.

if ydont understand it's okay, cause i just wanna feel better by typing it out. anyway that's not the main point. the main point is i miss many things. start from sec one alright? heeee. i miss hanging out and having the closeness with fiqa & aidah. i miss being sisters with fiqah & izzati.i miss being sooooo close with syaza. i miss the people in 2e4. i miss going out with fiqa to everywhere.i miss the non stop calls fiqah. i miss the late night calls too fad. i miss going central and buy bubble tea with you and just lepak with you and talk crap, fadd. i miss taking photos at cs toilet with aizah. i miss the vb girls. the barbecues with them. i miss the crazy talks with ayu. non stop of whyyyyyyyyyyyy (get it ayu?) i miss spending late night with ayu. night study,night talks,family outing,your ego (idk why) overnights at my hse.i miss you coming my house before tuiton, ayu. i miss the closeness of aiyunisablifa when everything was pure. i miss the night study with you bobby. i miss the gilers too. i miss going sch, going home, busrides, outings and etc fad. i miss sleeping with you lyn. i miss those happy/sad/crazy times lyn. i miss you being by my side lyn. i miss getting to go out and with all of them, not looking at the watch.i miss doing crazy things with them. i miss going vivo clarkequay beach,whyyyyyy. i miss the muffins,chewing gums that has been sent under the block. i miss the silent rides. i miss the star gazing at the breakwater. i miss the smell of the perfume too. i miss seeing my name at the pm. i miss when popcorn disuap. many more. see, emotional already. hahahaha. happy monday to all! (:

bola lantai ~

2009-07-13T16:48:00.002+08:00

there's more poeple actually who's not in those photos.

think thinking thinks thought.

Is Kristen Stewart Really Pregnant?

2009-07-13T15:54:00.002+08:00

More info for you concerned Robsten fans about the alleged spawn of Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart. The Internet has been blowing up about NW magazine's report of a preggers K.Stew, and reps for the two stars have stayed supermum, which has worried many of you out there.

Rob's camp tells thelondonpaper, "We don't comment on anything like that," while there has been no on-the-record word, either, from Kristen's people.
So what is the official unofficial word from a superwell-placed Kristen source?
"It is a nonsense, made-up story from an Australian tabloid with no merit," says an astonishingly in-the-know Stewart confidant.

Phew. Did any of you really buy it, anyways? We didn't. And we said so. There's just no way Kristen would seriously pop out a kid right now, sorry. With her career on fire and boy-girl drama up the yin yang, K has enough on her plate right now. Besides, she' no tabloid-baited finagler—Lindsay Lohan or Eva Longoria Parker she's not.

We're told even sources over at Summit didn't break a sweat over the mini-Robsten rumors:
"Of course the studio heard about it, but it's not worth their time. They knew there was no chance Kristen would be having Rob's kid. It didn't faze them."
So there you have it, folks. Anyone prepping to send Kristen even more hate mail can put their pens down. There is no pregnant Kristen Stewart. Not now, anyway.

http://www.eonline.com/uberblog/the_awful_truth/b133189_kristen_stewart_really_pregnant.html

Here We Go Again

2009-07-13T15:15:00.001+08:00

You never know what you want

And you never say what you mean

But I start to go insane

Everytime that you look at me

You only hear half of what I say

And you're always showing up too late

And I know that I should say goodbye

But it's no use

Can't be with or without you

O Oh O Oh

monday i like !

2009-07-13T14:40:00.002+08:00

i know my photos look stupid. but who cares. haha.my day started off well. maybe because i woke up early and when i reached at the bus stop, the bus came a min after that. i sat beside this lady which smells good. i like. then when she was going to alight, she actually smiled at me. then i realised how beautiful she was. heee. as usual the bus was packed from safra. when the bus reached tp east gate, i saw someone. someone very very familiar. then i remembered, he was my kindergarden and pri sch friend. most importantly he was my first crush. i was k2 back then. though he look like matrep, he still looked good. but i doubt he can recognise me. basically i spent my weekend with family. good to be with them.and imma daddy's good girl. heeee. school ended at one ! so i went home to puutt puutt.heh. gonna be busy with stuff. hope your monday isn't a blue one too.

HOT HOT

2009-07-12T00:09:00.002+08:00

i feel hot on saturday. hot as in angry. hhaha. they love to make me angry only. but it's okay.luckily they're strangers. i'm cool now. oh well. got new love already. happy (: simple and nice. kenduri (means gathering i think) for mama. i totally forgot to tell ogawa my reasons. shit shit. best time to sleep. best weather! heeeee. nights.

been wanting to say

2009-07-10T21:44:00.003+08:00

i seriously miss these two like crazy till i dreamt about them. can't remember exactly what happened. do you miss me? cause i miss you alot. & come to think of it my hair grew quite fast (:

thoughts, no assumptions

2009-07-10T21:20:00.002+08:00

many thought that only lovers can wear this but not friends or bestfriends. many asked and when i said my girlfriend gave, they gave -_- face. they even insisted that i was lying. oh well. see sissy? haha. kental eh. anyway the photo says it all. heeee. maceh maceh. i'll treasure it for sure. i'm feeling purple. you sissy? hahahha. i was sleeping when i smelled food. i opened my eyes right away and i saw kinder beuno right in front of my nose ! then they started to laugh their ass off. babi. hahaha.and i gotta say kental uh. nak buat pon tak menjadi. tapi sweet tak? iknoww. heeee.

thanks for cabbing all the way just to take care of me

thanks for coming to my hse from bugis just to see if i'm okay

thanks for listening to all the shits that poeple will actually get sick of it

thanks for accepting me even when the community don't

thanks for loving me even when we're fighting

thanks for making it alive though it was close to dead

thanks for the five years

& i know it won't stop here.

thanks sissy (:

sleepy friday

2009-07-10T14:47:00.002+08:00

don't stress don't stress don't stress. girl, you deserve nothing but the best

yo yo yo! hahah. i'm already freaking out cause quizes are coming up soon. and somehow that tam tam got better. way better this time round. honesty is the best policy. i shall remember that, don't you worry. gonna give a lil thing later. heeee. "these are the don'ts you must follow. don't wear that slipper (yknow the nike or adidas slippers which you just need to slip in) cause you will look like a minah. don't wear too much eyeliner cause you'll look like minah. don't dye your hair blonde cause you'll look like minah. i know you don't wear make up except for eyeliner but please don't cause you will look like a minah." -kathir. hahaaha. i was laughing all the way. what only kathir. sikit sikit also minah. haha. wanna have lunch now. toodles !

why why why?

2009-07-09T01:29:00.001+08:00

i can't seem to sleep. many many things.

nisa! sleep! tomorrow schooling!

oh well, nights to all.

and sweet dreams to me (:

always missing you

2009-07-09T00:04:00.001+08:00

if i could ask for just one thing,

can i sleep at your lap mama?

i would love to see you again in my dreams.

carefree ~

2009-07-08T22:26:00.006+08:00

lemme say something first. sorry to say this but please do not look down on people who don't go lectures. what, just because you go, you're clever is it? it's their lifes so don't bother. just mind your own can? oh well, anyway glad that ken and i managed to voice out for the class. just hope they'll do something about it. and catched up with aiyunisablifa. pretty short and simple. hope you liked the gift from iffah and i LISAH! tomorrow gonna be a very long long day but i'm fine with it cause got my sissy for what? heeee. you're the best! cute when people thought we're siblings/cousins/twins and etc since we're sec one. don't worry, i won't lose it. yknow iknow. hahaha. tomorrow, off to bedok reservoir again. oh well, i hope my timing will improve. stella gonna cut down the team again. very very scary. i must prepare myself to be thrown out of the team. not confident, idk why. let's just pray alright? "uh uh sia" it is minah- ish? gosh, i said it once and now everyone started to disturb me thanks to ogawa. never mind, i will get back at you. haha. and they kept saying kayla and i are colour blind. sad huh? the fact is we don't have any white jersey. haiyoo. hahaha. hmmm, what to wear uh tomorrow? why don't poly have uniforms? i prefer wearing uniforms than home clothes, lazy uh wanna think of what to wear everyday. zara is crazy cause she kept listening to hari raya songs! what the hell. hmmmm, still got a lot to improve on in terms of everything. working on it, insyallah. this is random but i wish to say something. thanks for loving me for who i am and not for other reasons. thanks for accepting my flaws and still look at my strengths instead of that. thanks for everything people. really. gonna do some revision and off to bed. nighty nights ~

good start

2009-07-06T14:41:00.007+08:00

stupid two. house,trance & hip hop. macam macam lah korang. haha. i wanna save save money for lots and lots of stuff. not shopping uhh. clear some shits and get a new love. heeeee. i'm trying to restrain myself from buying food like there's no food tomorrow. nisa, control nisa. haha. every morning all i need is teh susu ! (it's actually teh but i called it that. don't laugh eh syam) class ended early today so went home straight. not feeling well so not going training later. best weather, so let's sleep! eh wait, wanna eat then straight to bed. good afternoon to all (:

Didn't want to bury you but I had to

2009-07-06T14:01:00.007+08:00

Excuses, contradictions

I would have nothing to do with your fiction

one that you build on faith and faith alone

no logic

that will hold you up

when you cannot hold it yourself

Didn't want to bury you but I had to

and I'm truly sorry if you feel the ground caving in

climb on in, this is your bed. You made it.

you knew what you were doing when you came here

Well here is the end result

and I hope you are happy with it.

only a few will

2009-07-05T00:14:00.004+08:00

many will judge you. many will hate you. many will leave you. only a few will stay and stick with you. those few will be the ones you need to hold on to. cause they are the ones who will never judge you by your actions and most importantly they will love you no matter what. and i mean NO MATTER WHAT. try to sit and think about it. after that ask yourself, have you really treasure them all this while? if not, do it now.

i swear

2009-07-05T00:00:00.002+08:00

super duper sweet text till i myself cannot tahan. heee.what to do. alahai (:

best best best

2009-07-04T23:26:00.004+08:00

french connection. island shop. hush puppies.

" seriously, just go on. only true friends will stick with you no matter what. remember just do what you think is best for you and not for anyone else's cause no one understand any single thing what you've gone through. don't worry" - faris

before i go to sleep

2009-07-04T00:17:00.002+08:00

lemme just say something .

i feel like a stupid fucking idiot .

why why why ?

must it be like this ?

don't ask, i mean it.

sigh .

run, don't walk

2009-07-03T22:47:00.002+08:00

Just a quick one. i'm fine when it comes to running. but if you're talking about stamina, i totally suck at it. seriously. i like speed but never stamina. so just now was my first training cause of the bruises and all that made me missed 2 trainings. so at first when i start i thought i could make it. the word is thought. hahaha. macam paham lah nisa start in front in the end not first, apedah. how big is bedok reservoir? if i'm not wrong it's 4.3 or 4.8 km. timing 32 mins. yes i know, slow. aiyoyoo. gotta work on it. the word "give up" was always on my mind but ogawa pushed me through. thankyou. did sets of bodywork after that. dead ! maybe not for you but it was for me maybe cause i'm weak. "are you going to eat with us?" i replied nahh cause i wanna eat many many at home. haahha. they told me that all my efforts down the drain. " I never had the intention of losing weight. Though i do have some insecurities about some parts of my body, i love the way i am", that was my reply. Love yourself cause only then you can love other people (:

feeling sad&pissed. bloodyboy. why must you always do that uh? seriously yknow. everytime when there's a chance for you to get back at me, you will always do it. what? i'm your adek adek per? thank god i can control by not even opening my mouth. there's many more. but too tired to type. going back to my project then to bed. tired, seriously. i make sure i have an early sleep tonight cause tomorrow there's ngaji and training . nighty nights.

no more " the night is still young"

2009-07-03T16:26:00.017+08:00

firstly i wanna wish happy 18th birthday to zulhaili aka chicken little ! chey chey. da 18 uh abg tuu. sorry i got to give your party a pass. just enjoy your big fuck party tonight ! fly go fly ! hahaha. & to forget happy birthday lisah ! da 17 eh die? hmmmm. hahaha. so sorry i give you a late call. i was busy with project -__- enjoy with your family alright? i'll make sure you'll enjoy your day with us too. heeee. what you what? orange cake nak? hahaha. so girls, wednesday free not? let's make it on that day. anyway i'm left with project so i'm doing it now at school library -__- been in school since 9 am and i don't know how long i'm going to be at school thanks to training. oh wells, i've been staring at bedok reservoir just now, and true enough i'm lazy ! seriously. okayy, till here. enjoy your friday !

sincere apology

2009-07-02T22:02:00.005+08:00

this is what i just realised about myself. when i'm angry i'll blurt nonsense stuff. after that i'll regret. but the truth is i never had the intention to talk bad about anyone. and for the fact that i know he/she is nice, i never want my friendship with him/her destroy. yes i made a mistake but maybe the bigger mistake is i told the wrong people. i'm really really sorry. stupid mouth of mine. from now on i shall just let it pass and smile. everyone has their imperfections. i guess this is mine. ohwell, gotta change for the better. anyway still doing project more. sa yo na ra .

simple and just fine

2009-07-02T19:48:00.015+08:00

ohh my, i got lots to do. heeee. it's okay, no hurry. nowadays i keep telling myself everyday to always appreciate every single thing and it works, trust me. and when something didn't happen the right way, just chill. hahha. tomorrow gonna be a short short day for me. i will definitely take a nap first before training. test was fine just now although it was my weakest subject. insyallah can pass. let's just wait and see. i always have a dream stick which is salming blue, not any blue but silvery. the past training, i saw it in reality. BLOODY NICE. i can't help but to keep staring at it. I WANT IT. AND I MAKE SURE I GET THAT. JUST WAIT. ahaha. that's what i keep saying. shall start saving money from now ! fasting month is coming soon and i still remember i gotta repay back 10 days. hmmmmm. shall repay soon. on the fasting month, training will continue. how how how? i hope i can handle it. somehow it reminded me of my pri sch days. had tournament on the fasting day. many was exhausted but still continued. i managed to fast on that day so i guess i can handle it. but but it gonna be a challenge. hahaa. many people happen to fast today and it's going to be maghrib soon, so selamat berbuka semua !and i know it's too late but good luck for your olevel oral zeeeee! okay, till here. i wanna eat many many before doing school stuff. BYE :D

before school

2009-07-02T07:35:00.002+08:00

hey hey hey. i'm early. haha. waiting for the right time to do my thing later. yknow iknow. i'm still tired actually but i can't miss eng drawing ! i like. ahaha. i had a good time yesterday catching up with you girl. i feel different today, i don't know why. hahaa. i keep losing things, irritating right? i know. i've been using this simple phone for quite long. the sony was spoiled long ago, told khairul and he said "toldya the phone sort". haha. it's okay, you have mine and i shall have yours. nisa, must study ! no more fly high. no more strawberry. have a good day people.

fine long day

2009-07-02T01:34:00.006+08:00

good morning ! i'm sure all of you are asleep by now. been doing lots and lots of things. very very sleepy now. hope tomorrow will be fine. just afraid i might get tired. anyway girls, from today till next week, i'm only free on wednesday, how how? really sorry but been very occupied with lots of things. another test tomorrow ! wish me luck (:

kari pap !

2009-07-01T22:21:00.002+08:00

fahmee didn't tell mama that i was home so everyone had theirs except for me. very very sad. many won't understand why. dad realised then out of the blue he told me that he has odered 3 boxes already. i didn't asked for it.but all i did was smile. whatever he did reminded me of someone. but die da tido pon. baru nak ceritakan. hahah. still busy with schoolstuff. goooooooodbyeeeeeeee

y o u

2009-07-01T20:54:00.005+08:00

i know i've made mistakes. but i hope you know yours too. i swear upon my life i love you since we were young. but do you? now? i don't know. i'm tearing, maybe because i miss the person too much. i'll always pray for your happiness my dear.

oh perfumes, i like

2009-07-01T19:45:00.002+08:00

before i do my assignments lemme tell ya something. i like perfumes but i have a problem. i either lose it or gone in some way or another.

britney spears fantasy perfume - used halfway but was stolen (erghhh!)
victoria secret vanilla lace - still have it
victoria secret amber romance - still have it
burberry the beat - finished
aigner too feminine - finished
body shop amorito- lost
body shop vanilla - lost
paris hilton can can - with me

i wanna have a collection of perfumes. just love it. but it's not about the brand, it's about the quality. but i think most importantly, it lies within you. if you want it long lasting buy a more high priced perfume but if you don't mind just buy the cheap one cause as long as you smell nice it's fine. random, he just bought for me necklaces trying to win back my heart. heeeee. see, fathers will always be like guys. oh wait, he's a guy what. haha. guys oh guys. sayonara (:

friendlys

2009-07-01T19:36:00.002+08:00

i was happy cause i thought we were going to run for 2 rounds. after the two rounds, they still continued and i was like "why are you guys still running?" then i realised we need to run 4 rounds. had friendly game right after that, from 6.30 to 8.50 if i'm not wrong. played against ite west. quite a tough game, but we won. alhamdullillah. i need to improve on a lot of things. it's okay, slowly. so far i think our team is doing fine. last few weeks we played friendly against ite east. that was a win too, but we still got a lot to improve on as a team. on the way home, i took the lift with this indian lady. she asked me what sports i was playing and so i replied floorball. she ask again, primary school or secondary school? i replied no telling her i'm schooling in tp. then she's like shocked. wth. hahaha.

it's alright, it's okay

2009-06-29T00:49:00.002+08:00

at last, recovered. legs on action tomorrow. four trainings a week? hmmm. i can do it, insyallah. dirty lil talks. cute lah them. thanks for making my day girls, really had fun just now. i hope and wish that we will still gonna stick like this in the future. it's not gonna be easy but we can always try remember? we've gone through thick and thin together, so why not go a little bit more further? it's true, friends come and go. but not all. so i hope in my life you girls and some others will stay with me, can? heeeeee. all you gotta do is have faith. guess what? project undone. gosh. heeee. sorry teen for being a lousy partner, will try to figure out something tmrw alright? won't repeat again, i'm sure. okay till here.

fiqa oh fiqa

2009-06-29T00:29:00.004+08:00

i don't know how you find your day fiqa but i surely enjoy every moment of it. heeeee. just hope you had fun too. it started from the phone call. she's cute. haha. she asked us like what were we wearing so i said wear something nice cause that's what we're wearing. aizah exaggerated saying she wore satin dress ! wth. haha. she's fooled. preparations for her celebration is a secret. kan kan aizah? haaha. picked her up from her house. i was laughing my ass off when i saw her wearing something real nice. hahaha. blindfolded her and brought her to a secret venue. (which was actually my house ) heee. when she opened her eyes, there was a happy birthday banner, balloons, twister, pizza, cake, drinks and etc. fast forward till near the end. then she was blindfolded again cause the fun has not end yet. brought her to a multi purpose hall, then splash! hasan zara fahmee fiqah and aizah was having fun throwing water bombs at her while i was recording it. too bad can't post it cause of some reasons. heeeeeeeeee. tuu pon secret. chilled at my crib after that. what a fun day. ahhaha. alamak, tomorrow school uh! & not to forget happy 17th to you mira !!!! read my text alright? hope to see you soon ! nights (:

l o v e

2009-06-28T12:32:00.006+08:00

one thing for sure i really envy them. and their love life too. i can't deny their photos are lovely. but there's more to it. i feel that they're not trying to hard you know. there are some people who show off their love life for don't know what reason. despite the rocky times they had, they're still together. i must say their relationship is strong. and common people, though Vanessa had some photos blablabla, she's human and people makes mistakes. so don't judge her just by that. pretty lame yknow. feeling feeling. my time will come , when i don't know. haaha. insyallah.

i might not know exactly how it feels when i see mum's tears. but the truth was i felt something when i saw you cried. idk why. maybe cause i would want to love you and for you to love me back. but is that possible? i don't wanna love you cause i'm afraid i fall for the trap again. i don't wanna get hurt mama. although he tried his best to be both but he can't. and worse still, we're not on good terms. hey, i don't want it this way but he went to far. you know it mama. if you're talking about my 2 sisters and my eldest brother, they're simply gone. seriously, kak s is simply busy with work and boyfriend. i understand. but i was at least expecting her to ask how am i when she called. instead, she fight with me about the shoes and just slammed the phone. cool or what. but i just didn't care much. cause afterall i knew i need to give in if she doesn't. kak a is so busy with family but if we never call her or anything, she wouldn't bother. i don't mind going all the way to jurong and woodlands just for you but if i ever ask you to come over, there will be millions of reasons which are actually excuses. so much for blood when we never hear from each other anymore. i've tried for 8 years and i think it's enough. thank god i still have zara and fahmee. they're the reason why. and i will always hold on to them, mark my words. and not to forget my friends.

after all, hidup kene chill

tra la la

2009-06-27T22:08:00.011+08:00

one random thing, i don't mind being with megan fox! common, you can't deny she's freaking hot right? heeee.anyway whatcha doing on saturday night? lemme guess. partying? chilling? shopping? boyfriend? soccer? hope all of you are enjoying right now. for me, chilled at home basically the whole day. eat,ngaji,eat,karaoke,xbox,eat,lappy,eat and to sleep later on. heee. honeydew sago, here i come. oh wrong. honeydew sago is coming to me. THANKYOU !!!!!!

go go, have fun cause i'm having fun with bears all around me,enjoying the movie.

Just Girls

2009-06-27T21:50:00.004+08:00

Topic for today will be girls having crushes on girls. girlfriends will always give remarks like "hey, that girl is pretty" and i'm not referring to that. what i'm referring to is crushes, real ones. try to get it yeah. i know there are many girls who like to look at girls but fullstop. what i'm talking is when a girl gives you butterflies and makes you blush. have you ever felt that before? if you ever, have you ever ask about your sexuality girls? think about it. how sure are you whether you're a straight woman or a gay woman? hmmmmmmmm. so i'm gonna share a video with all of you about women crushes. there's actually 5 parts to it but i don't think you wanna watch it all so i picked the most interesting video. check it out!

i l i k e

2009-06-26T23:35:00.006+08:00

look at it. it says " i don't care". heeeeeeeeeeeeee.

rest your eyes. rest your mind. just let the faces of the people you really love pass you by. just close your eyes. the answer will simply come to you. exert no brain work at all. just let the subtle images of them run through you. and with no doubt, these are the people you deeply love and need. are those that have changed you and have impacted you so deeply. that subconsciously, every moment you live, you're living it for them. and everything you are is somewhat sculpt by them - fiqah.

joy oh joy

2009-06-26T23:04:00.005+08:00

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anyway that's belle. such a lovely girl. she's gorgeous. uhuhh. nice seeing you again ! and people, chill alright about results. seriously. all you gotta do is c h i l l . trust me, my leg isn't getting any better, no joke. that's why i didn't went training. i'm praying hard that i'll get into the team, insyallah. 4 trainings? hmmmmmm. that means i gotta eat more than what i eat now. heee. alright time for me to eat then sleep cause tmrw got ngaji ! yay! loving it. alhamdullillah. sorry friends but i'm not free next week at all, so please if want change it to next two weeks alright? i haven't watch transformers. grrrrrr. nvm. worse part is, people have been telling me parts and pieces of the story. not helping. i know. but it's alright. shall watch it soooooooon. sayonara.

"cause i don't wanna go to bed mad at you"

neyo .

little miss sunshine or chatterbox? hmmmm (:

2009-06-25T23:06:00.006+08:00

i don't know whether to laugh, cry or to get angry with it. firstly it's still no-talk for yknow who. this come the interesting part, i just gotta know that someone's spying on me, wanna destroy my life silently. the best is the person has been sooooooooooooooooooo nice to me. another has been such a devil somehow. pain in the eyes. seriously. haha. funny how things can go this way. the rest are like mind-your-own-business, couldn't-be-bothered or just busy-with-things. i understand. it's alright. and it's all happening under one roof ! HAHHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAAH

but i'm doing pretty good somehow. managed to, idk how. wheee ! maybe certain about lots and lots of stuff.hush hush. one thing for sure i'm not pretending to be who i'm not. i am who i am. heee. got results back. glad but not satisfied. idk why. hmmmmmmmm. to you Ddarl, really really takecare alright? miss your smile and laughter.

To be honest, no friend has ever loved me so much like how this girl did. I know saying thankyou won't mean much cause i've been saying it but i'll make sure i'll be the bestest friend to you like how you make me feel. Remember you wrote on the book you would wanna be my bridesmaid? yes girl, no doubt you will. I thought i will never know how is it like to be and have a bestfriend. But i was wrong. I can continue typing but let's just keep the rest private. youknow iknow. heee. One thing for sure we have both accepted for WHO we are. In case you're wondering it's fiqah♥

GOODNIGHT :D

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2009-06-25T00:26:00.004+08:00

I GOT SO MANY THINGS TO SAY THAT I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO START AND WHEN I COME THIS PAGE SUDDENLY IT WENT BLANK. HOW HOW HOW ! AIYOYO PUNA.

HAPPY 17TH MY LOVE !

2009-06-25T00:15:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE ! I GOT A LOT OF THINGS TO SAY TO YOU BUT THAT'S PRIVATE. HAHHAHA. JUST WANNA LET YOU KNOW THAT YOU REALLY MEAN SOMETHING TO ME, ALRIGHT? TAKECARE ~

BACK TO SCHOOL PEOPLE !

just to make it clear

2009-06-21T20:22:00.002+08:00

i'm your friend not cause you need to tell me everything but i'm your friend cause i'm here if you need anything. & no matter what, you mia or whatsoever, i'll always stay beside you and you know you can always count on me. and and i know you need a hug so don't worry cause i'll hug you like i've never hug you before. sayangkau ♥

conversations

2009-06-21T19:23:00.002+08:00

hey, firstly make sure you recover from your ugly manly sorethroat. heeee. and about that thing, don't bother anymore.hahaha. i believe in karma so i'm pretty sure it will slap it's face. just make sure you'll have a safe trip there. PLEASE bace bismillah before you wanna eat. and just try out the food there, don't be such an idiot not to try. hahaha. bring your kit-ni pillow (kit for kitten, ni for nisa) so that you won't miss me that much. don't forget to bring oinment for your troublesome tummy and eye-mo incase you get a tembel there. i don't wanna say more cause i don't want you to think i love you. in fact my hatred towards you will never change :D

xoxo, you know you love me (:

ilyas was talking to me about 2e4 bbq! i swear i can't wait for it. seriously ilyas, you better make it happen cause i'm waiting for it. hahaa. i can help you if you want. i can't deny that each soul in 2e4 is unique and when we all come together, i swear it's the shit.yknow what i mean. heh.

& so much for uniqueness when you only have a little to offer.

sayonara (:

hasan makes my day like totally

2009-06-21T16:46:00.002+08:00

hello/ my name hasan. the rated r superstar EdGe

that's what hasan typed btw. it took him the whole of 2 mins just to type that & i don't know what he's talking so just don't bother. we're gonna play roller coaster tycoon 3 ! wheee. bye ~

have faith

2009-06-21T03:10:00.005+08:00

so, impossible as they may seem

you've got to fight for every dream

anyway it's 3.40 am. heee. i feel hungry. i wanna eat then go to sleep. nights people (:

Kuch Kuch Hota Hai

2009-06-21T00:19:00.004+08:00

i used to sing this "song" when i was small. i memorised it and i even managed to sing it full. but i got big scolding from my parents. why? because it's a hindu prayer. heee. from then on, they forced me not to sing it. today i watch that movie and the thing is the prayer can never get out from my head. heh....Men are very weak. They make principles but don't realise that no principle can override the heart. And we remind these stubborn weak men that bonds of the heart are based on feelings not principles. But these bonds are created by telling the other person about one's inner feelings. So go ahead and tell. Cause by not saying it makes you unhappy.

peace yaw

2009-06-20T15:34:00.005+08:00

my saturday today is pampering myself with food and hindi movies. how bout yours?

hope you will enjoy yours too :D